I had no idea what the term toxic masculinity meant. I had never heard of feminism. I certainly did not understand transgender issues. I also didn’t know anyone who was (openly) gay.
Author Archives: Jimmy Pete
Bonnie, the Golden Retriever who couldn’t retrieve
Bonnie was our family dog, who joined us in September 2006. She died peacefully on my brother’s lap in November 2019. She was an incredible dog.
Part 6: Experiences of my first year as a Doctor
The first time I verified a death was quite a harrowing experience, and I came away from it feeling incredibly empty and drained.
Part 5: Dealing with grief with a mental illness
He passed away the night before my 21st birthday, and just days before I had a psychotic relapse.
Part 4: Living with a diagnosis of Bipolar Affective Disorder
For me my mental health is like a muscle. Sometimes it needs to tear in order to grow stronger, and more stable.
Part 3b: Sleepless highs
I would toss and turn, listen to music, attempt meditation techniques. Nothing helped. It then came to my attention that perhaps sleep was no longer necessary for me. After all, I didn’t feel tired at any point throughout the night. My thoughts were getting faster and faster and I felt good.
Part 3a: Sleepless highs
I drank a lot of alcohol. However, I felt incredible, and I felt confident, strong and unstoppable. I was what people would describe in the social context, as ‘on form’.
Part 2: Confusion in paradise
I was beyond reasoning with. I was irrational. And ultimately I was psychotic. This was serious.
Part 1: The delusional drug
“I soon became very low in mood and I vividly remember suddenly breaking down in tears in front of my whole family at the dinner table, without being able to say what was causing me such upset.”