My Mental Health Journey – Page 2

Part 3b: Sleepless highs

I would toss and turn, listen to music, attempt meditation techniques. Nothing helped. It then came to my attention that perhaps sleep was no longer necessary for me. After all, I didn’t feel tired at any point throughout the night. My thoughts were getting faster and faster and I felt good.

Part 3a: Sleepless highs

I drank a lot of alcohol. However, I felt incredible, and I felt confident, strong and unstoppable. I was what people would describe in the social context, as ‘on form’.

Part 2: Confusion in paradise

I was beyond reasoning with. I was irrational. And ultimately I was psychotic. This was serious.

Part 1: The delusional drug

“I soon became very low in mood and I vividly remember suddenly breaking down in tears in front of my whole family at the dinner table, without being able to say what was causing me such upset.”